今天没有令人怀念的明月，也没有爽朗的微风，只有陪我孤独的街灯。怀念的心情顿然生起。
经过很多很多的事，让我明白了一间是，好好爱你身边的人，很你爱的人。
很多时候，我都回问一问自己，自己来这个世上是为了什么？在n年前，我还找不到答案，因为我很迷茫。
也许很多人会讲活在当下，那当下又如何呢？人的七情六欲是否能让人活在当下呢？
每天，我们会面对很多的问题，有些是琐碎的问题，有些是必须去解决的问题，困扰在问题的我们，是否找到我们的解决方案呢？
你爱的人有几个，是否一生当中我们就是等待爱你的人的出现呢？爱你的人，你是否又爱他呢？
真的，有时真的很无奈，自己的心很难受，可是那又如何呢？只有期待奇迹的出现，我等待奇迹的出现。
很想好好的透一透气，那种纳闷，那种无奈，仿佛就是在等待一个没有答案的问题。我们每天都活在这很虚幻的世界，为何讲虚幻呢？因为生不带来，死不带去。那不是虚幻是什么？天天，我们为了生活，那么努力的打拼，得到的还是一场比空白的纸还白。人其实可以很容易满足，就是那么的一声慰问，我就已经得到我该有的安慰了。你慰问我了吗？我珍惜你，你有珍惜我吗？？
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
爸爸的白发
外头有车回来咯，应该我爸回来了吧。又是和朋友应酬去咯。也要啦，今天他的心情真的很不好，他的一切，我都看在眼里。
他看到在后庭的我，走过来问我，还没睡哦？当然没睡咯，因为我担心我老爸。他心情不好，他就是那样，心情不好，怎样都好就是不会和儿子讲，我妈常和我说，我爸是对我们兄弟最好的人了，可是从前我就没有体会到。最近这几年，我爸真的是老了。一个铁人，开始喊累了。他和我说，他累了，我强忍泪水，对他说，爸，你一点都不会老。我不能说我爸是天下最好的爸爸，可是我能说，他是对我们最好的爸爸。他的关心就是那么的隐藏。还记得，小时候，我吃粽子吃到胃痛，他三更半夜背了我去找医师，那份感动，我永记于心。
今天，他坐到我的身旁，和我聊了一场天，他就坐在我身旁，很靠近，原来，我发现，我爸真的老了。他的皱纹一条一条的展现无遗，白发斑斑，谈话之中发现到他的累。为了这个家，他付出了青春。在我的记忆当中，我和他要钱，他不曾说不。为的是要我专心读书。如今我出来工作了，才知道，老爸，你好伟大，伟大到，我连你的一分也不如。刚刚很想搭你肩膀，为你打气。可是我就没有勇气。爸，你加油吧，这个家除了你之外，还有我。也很想告诉你，你的养育之恩，我一辈子也还不完，可是我会用我的一辈子，像你那么的呵护我一样，双倍的去呵护你。爸，你是最棒的。
他看到在后庭的我，走过来问我，还没睡哦？当然没睡咯，因为我担心我老爸。他心情不好，他就是那样，心情不好，怎样都好就是不会和儿子讲，我妈常和我说，我爸是对我们兄弟最好的人了，可是从前我就没有体会到。最近这几年，我爸真的是老了。一个铁人，开始喊累了。他和我说，他累了，我强忍泪水，对他说，爸，你一点都不会老。我不能说我爸是天下最好的爸爸，可是我能说，他是对我们最好的爸爸。他的关心就是那么的隐藏。还记得，小时候，我吃粽子吃到胃痛，他三更半夜背了我去找医师，那份感动，我永记于心。
今天，他坐到我的身旁，和我聊了一场天，他就坐在我身旁，很靠近，原来，我发现，我爸真的老了。他的皱纹一条一条的展现无遗，白发斑斑，谈话之中发现到他的累。为了这个家，他付出了青春。在我的记忆当中，我和他要钱，他不曾说不。为的是要我专心读书。如今我出来工作了，才知道，老爸，你好伟大，伟大到，我连你的一分也不如。刚刚很想搭你肩膀，为你打气。可是我就没有勇气。爸，你加油吧，这个家除了你之外，还有我。也很想告诉你，你的养育之恩，我一辈子也还不完，可是我会用我的一辈子，像你那么的呵护我一样，双倍的去呵护你。爸，你是最棒的。
Friday, April 3, 2009
无题
小时候常常想，长大时会是什么的一回事呢？长大时是不是那么的自由自在呢？也出常想，在成长的过程只中，会为我的德人生写下多少的故事呢？我真的很不懂。常常很向往长大的时候，在我记忆当中也忘了最后一次圈妈妈的手是何时了。
小时候常常和妈妈顶嘴，就是为一些我本身认为不满意的事，可是我常常都忘了，不满意的事常常都有，也没有站在妈妈的那一方面想想，他是多么的辛苦，有时候，我连泪水和汗水也分不出了。可是妈妈还是不怨劳苦的把我们抚养成人，她的泪水是往肚里吞。
今早，我去吃了早餐，吃着吃着，有个老人家出现在我的身旁，看他白发斑斑，一拨一拨的在我身旁，就是要讨钱。我真的还是不理会他耶，只因他一看下去就是一幅骗人的样子，展现无遗。可是我又深深地想一想，他都一把年纪了，就可能逼于无奈才出来行乞的，就帮帮他把，好让他的日子会好过一点。一个老人家，凭着日嗮雨淋，为了三餐的温饱，出来工作又没人会请他们,社会的冷漠就是令人那么的无奈。自古以来弱肉强食就本是一个定律。可是在这些定律当中还是有人间的温暖。话说回头，我又想想，这个老人家又有着什么故事呢？他们的儿子，女儿呢？他们知道自己的老爸在行乞吗？顿时间我觉得人生短短几十年，我要的是什么？我答不出来。活在当下是最好的选择。
小时候常常和妈妈顶嘴，就是为一些我本身认为不满意的事，可是我常常都忘了，不满意的事常常都有，也没有站在妈妈的那一方面想想，他是多么的辛苦，有时候，我连泪水和汗水也分不出了。可是妈妈还是不怨劳苦的把我们抚养成人，她的泪水是往肚里吞。
今早，我去吃了早餐，吃着吃着，有个老人家出现在我的身旁，看他白发斑斑，一拨一拨的在我身旁，就是要讨钱。我真的还是不理会他耶，只因他一看下去就是一幅骗人的样子，展现无遗。可是我又深深地想一想，他都一把年纪了，就可能逼于无奈才出来行乞的，就帮帮他把，好让他的日子会好过一点。一个老人家，凭着日嗮雨淋，为了三餐的温饱，出来工作又没人会请他们,社会的冷漠就是令人那么的无奈。自古以来弱肉强食就本是一个定律。可是在这些定律当中还是有人间的温暖。话说回头，我又想想，这个老人家又有着什么故事呢？他们的儿子，女儿呢？他们知道自己的老爸在行乞吗？顿时间我觉得人生短短几十年，我要的是什么？我答不出来。活在当下是最好的选择。
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
My office and my colleage
Well, is been a long time i did not updated my blog here. I am quite busy recently dt month end closing. What a suck life. Anyway, it has been passed already and let it be.
Since today i don't need performed OT, and yet i am kinda free here, its time to updated my blog. Today is 1st of April and yeah, it the first day of April, happy April's fool, anyone of u being fool by ur's friend? Ur's colleage? And maybe by ur's family's member? I think that ur's parent won't that silly till jump out by blocking ur's road and saying to u, happy April fool ba =='' i am so free here, wua ka ka. Today i totally no in the mood to doing any case (but at least i have done my part la), haha, dt yesterday i am so tired , performed OT till 9'o clock, but i think that i am not the last one who back to home, my senior will be the last batch to bec home. So scary, do OT till that late.
Bec to my office, we had align all the sitting place, i totally don't like that place bcoz i sit near the fax machine that is locate in the fax room and besise me is the photocopy machine, is a disaster that place me under that place @@, i am going crazy dy, shld i ? Everytime i try to kick (actually not dare) tat machine when it is out of paper, who are so clever that make out the machine will come out the noise when it is out of paper, can the engineer make a machine that will come out a song rather than de de de ?? it sound good right, if the copymachine come out a song? Erm, may be the engineer can take this as a consideration, ha ha.. Pay me the money once u guy have invent it out, is me gv u guy the idea. ^^
I sit near the corridor, people keep on moving in and out, keep on see me what i am doing, lol, need to see one mei? I'm doing endless casesssss la. Well , the person who sit next to me is my senior, his name is Ah Boon, is a funny guy, sometime. Teach me a lot of thing and my lunchmate too. The person sit in front of me is Eva,ops, is a swam, i wonder why a swam sit in the office.
He got a admire o, ha ha ..cannot tell here, later she going to kill me. Oh, yeah, why i call her as swam? Erm, this a story about, few days ago, i dont know what day izit la, as i know is few days ago, i am so boring and tired by doing case dy, suddenly my mind come out a silly Q, jeng jeng jeng. I ask few of my colleage, ha ha, can said that most of them choose the same answer. The question is " among these animal, which one that u will choose to be ? got goose, swam and duck " most of them choose to become swam, haha ..obviously is a trap, why people want become animal, become human not good mei ? Is a symptom of tension.
Oh ya, when i facing the difficult case, ha ha ..who i will refer to ? Yup, is my relative, ah peng ..ha ha, thanks dude that always help me, bcoz of that super ugly hand writing from certain Dr, huh, for the Dr who see this blog, can u please at least write properly, make sure other also understand what u write, k ? We are going to read and figured it out what u trying to let us know, is a time consuming just to intrepret the sentence. Besides, she also be the person to chit chat too, haiz, all nonsence thing la, carp all the time.
Bec to my lunchmate, tat is a lot of member over there, normally we will open a chat room and discuss where to eat, normally all of them are keep on doing case, to hit target ma, lol..at least respond a bit la wei, CV is our favourite place to go to, next is A3, huh, is quite bored that having dinner at these place, can we choose other place? Ha ha , yup , i can , go PV lo.. I enjoy the lunch time, although need walk under the hot sun, but still will enjoy it by talking lot of craps, Huh, symptom of over tension.
I am staring hating Saturday, this is bcoz saturday need do OT ar, omg , is my nightmare, is a tradisi that perform OT during weekend, yup , i ask my Boss dy, yes..wua ka ka..since this is a tradisi let it extinct, wua ka ka..come out a new style, don't need ot during weekend, heh heh ..I think that i am start dreaming dy, its time go to bed, lets sleep, wish u guy have a sweet dream.
* Hoping tmr's cases won't that difficult..Good night ...
Since today i don't need performed OT, and yet i am kinda free here, its time to updated my blog. Today is 1st of April and yeah, it the first day of April, happy April's fool, anyone of u being fool by ur's friend? Ur's colleage? And maybe by ur's family's member? I think that ur's parent won't that silly till jump out by blocking ur's road and saying to u, happy April fool ba =='' i am so free here, wua ka ka. Today i totally no in the mood to doing any case (but at least i have done my part la), haha, dt yesterday i am so tired , performed OT till 9'o clock, but i think that i am not the last one who back to home, my senior will be the last batch to bec home. So scary, do OT till that late.
Bec to my office, we had align all the sitting place, i totally don't like that place bcoz i sit near the fax machine that is locate in the fax room and besise me is the photocopy machine, is a disaster that place me under that place @@, i am going crazy dy, shld i ? Everytime i try to kick (actually not dare) tat machine when it is out of paper, who are so clever that make out the machine will come out the noise when it is out of paper, can the engineer make a machine that will come out a song rather than de de de ?? it sound good right, if the copymachine come out a song? Erm, may be the engineer can take this as a consideration, ha ha.. Pay me the money once u guy have invent it out, is me gv u guy the idea. ^^
I sit near the corridor, people keep on moving in and out, keep on see me what i am doing, lol, need to see one mei? I'm doing endless casesssss la. Well , the person who sit next to me is my senior, his name is Ah Boon, is a funny guy, sometime. Teach me a lot of thing and my lunchmate too. The person sit in front of me is Eva,ops, is a swam, i wonder why a swam sit in the office.
He got a admire o, ha ha ..cannot tell here, later she going to kill me. Oh, yeah, why i call her as swam? Erm, this a story about, few days ago, i dont know what day izit la, as i know is few days ago, i am so boring and tired by doing case dy, suddenly my mind come out a silly Q, jeng jeng jeng. I ask few of my colleage, ha ha, can said that most of them choose the same answer. The question is " among these animal, which one that u will choose to be ? got goose, swam and duck " most of them choose to become swam, haha ..obviously is a trap, why people want become animal, become human not good mei ? Is a symptom of tension.
Oh ya, when i facing the difficult case, ha ha ..who i will refer to ? Yup, is my relative, ah peng ..ha ha, thanks dude that always help me, bcoz of that super ugly hand writing from certain Dr, huh, for the Dr who see this blog, can u please at least write properly, make sure other also understand what u write, k ? We are going to read and figured it out what u trying to let us know, is a time consuming just to intrepret the sentence. Besides, she also be the person to chit chat too, haiz, all nonsence thing la, carp all the time.
Bec to my lunchmate, tat is a lot of member over there, normally we will open a chat room and discuss where to eat, normally all of them are keep on doing case, to hit target ma, lol..at least respond a bit la wei, CV is our favourite place to go to, next is A3, huh, is quite bored that having dinner at these place, can we choose other place? Ha ha , yup , i can , go PV lo.. I enjoy the lunch time, although need walk under the hot sun, but still will enjoy it by talking lot of craps, Huh, symptom of over tension.
I am staring hating Saturday, this is bcoz saturday need do OT ar, omg , is my nightmare, is a tradisi that perform OT during weekend, yup , i ask my Boss dy, yes..wua ka ka..since this is a tradisi let it extinct, wua ka ka..come out a new style, don't need ot during weekend, heh heh ..I think that i am start dreaming dy, its time go to bed, lets sleep, wish u guy have a sweet dream.
* Hoping tmr's cases won't that difficult..Good night ...
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