当初的我

新年又道了， 可是今年的新年来的很快。传眼间只剩不到一个礼拜，可是我还没有准备要新年呢。 

想想我当出得到大学得那一刻，复杂的心情比起彼落， 很多的犹豫， 很多的未知数， 很多可能， 很多的担心，只因我从来没有离开家里那么久，那么远。 不知不觉，我在kl 已经要接近8年了。 这八年，我也不懂如何度过。 

想当初， 初出茅庐， 离开我的熟悉感，来到了个陌生的地方。 我的不安， 越来越严重， 第一个礼拜的oreintation 就把我搞到奔溃，天天打给家人， 带给我妈。 那时很傻，听到妈的声音不敢大大声哭， 可是一盖下电话， 无声的眼泪从脸颊留下， 颤抖的背影还是很可怜。 

接下来，慢慢适应外头的生活， 也认识了一堆猪朋狗友 ｛是啦，我说着你｝，开始人慢慢的开朗。大学是美好的， 很多很美的回忆， 汗水， 泪水， 笑声， 吵杂声，好多好多， 慢慢的铸成我永生难忘的美好回忆。

 三年，很快就过了， 不舍还是不舍。我终于踏入人生的另一个阶段。工作， 有了人生的第一份薪水，不知不觉， 将快5年了。 如今，我要在kl扎根了，我要买我人生中的第二间家。

要在kl生活，你要有那种勇气，坚持， 独立。因为离开家那么远， 问题一来， 你只有靠你自己解决。

蹦蹦跑跑，起起落落， 我的人生阶段有了所谓的负担，一个男人该有的负担。我发现，我再也不是那个黄毛小子。我的蜕变，只有我懂。 

新年了，我想家了。 

"我的歌聲裡"-曲婉婷 (You Exist in My Song - Wanting Qu) - 高豪力 (Gerald Ko) 翻唱

这首歌，很爱， 很爱。旋律， 歌词， 写意着慢慢的回忆。

无奈

那种感觉，很无奈。很久没有那种感觉了。无奈又无助。 

那种要放弃又有种犹豫的感觉，整天就是在心里头os不停。 常常想， 是环境改变我， 还是我已经变了。

我也没有以前的那么热诚， 那么的热爱热闹，开始想停顿下来，让自己真的是沉淀下来。生活真的很累， 累的我的表情已经是七情六欲，表达无疑。 

常常想， 我追求的是什么？钱？名利？名车？大屋？爱情？友情？ 

原来越长大， 烦恼越来越多。上班为的就是下班，下完班还要教补习。没有补习的时候， 就回去运动。 我的生活太饱满了，假日感觉没什么休息到，一转眼就是星期一了。 

今天晚上有点点的忧闷，拿起电话，却发现，以往的好友都有各自的家庭，也不能像以往一样，半夜也是可是打电话去吵他们。唯有上来部落格发唠叨。

在我心里头， 原本有个很安全的港头， 可是那个港头现在变的很陌生， 我不敢将船驶入这个港头，深怕船会沉没。往往， 我只是悄悄的从这个港头驶过，从远处深深的遥望着它。 它既熟悉且陌生。那有我同年的回忆，有我走过无数岁业的痕迹。我怀念它， 爱它，拥护着它。可是现在也看着它满满的被摧毁。无情的被摧毁。泪水在眼眶里打滚，使命的忍耐， 泪水往肚里吞。

 最近爱上这首歌，爱的是歌的含义，爱的是它的故事。

我的歌声里。。。。 晚安 

13/3/2012

今天是灰天，心情很灰暗，想起刚刚的事，我心疼因为您的心疼。
对不起，我没能在您的身旁给您安慰与鼓励，我很不孝。
我爱您，妈。

About Gym

Kinda long time I didn't update my blog. Oh yeah, today topic is about my gym and combat class.
I bet that some of my friends didn't aware that actually I joined gym and combat class since early of the year around March. Since I easy get sick and sprained my neck and shoulder, I decided to gv myself a try to join gym so that I can become more strong and healthy and hope that I not easy fall into sick.

Lets talk about gym. Oh yeah, actually I decided to joined Celebrity Fitness. Reason being is it located near to my house and for this branches , there is not much people and i don't need have to wait for long time to enjoy the equipments. Inside the gym have a lot of people, guys and gal, old women and men, handsome, pretty, ugly, low profile and high profile, of course inside there have a lot of guys like to showed off. Well, when the time i have good body shape and 8 packs, I think I'm one of them too. So nothing wrong for them to show off.

For these few months, i had knew quite a number of new friends, some are good and some have purposes. Ha ha , gym is a good place for those really want to have good body. Others people body will trigger ur self and make you decided to train yourself so that you can have a good body like them. No doubt on it , it happened to me too (although i still no have 8 packs yet).

Besides gym, i also joining class called body combat. I like it a lot, and throughout one hr class, it will burn a lot of calories. I found out that my fat all turn into muscle, believed that in next year , i can achieved my target. Let's talk about combat class. Normally i will joined 3 classes per week each is conducted by 2 gals and 1 guy. Each trainer have their own technique on how to teach and make their class happening. The class that I like the most is conducted by Kevin. Reason why is after joining his class, i found that i really burned a lot of fat, and my muscle become more firm. I called it 'hard core' class. But, sometime i dislike it too as his class always full with people, as this trainer is quite handsome and muscular guy, a lot of gals like to join his class, i found out that there is always one gal like to come his class but pretend that she is newbie and hope that something is happened between her and Kevin. Just funny saw this happened in the class. Few months ago, i still remember got one auntie is joined his class too, but always she can't follow the step and she is always left behind, sometime she just swing her leg and hand only bluntly. When people jump to the left, she jump to the right and vice versa. This is just part of it, I also found that got few cute gals is always come to class and they are expert in combating, no mistake and each punch, hit, kick and hook are so powerful and firm.

Recently i found that I'm getting lazy and lazy, lazy to work, lazy to gym and even lazy to take up my magazine/book and read. I also found that I'm lazy to talk. Not sure what was happening to me. Well, less than 2 months, I have a trip to Taiwan, but guess wat , i not even complete my itinerary. Felt like don't want to go. Lazy worms is spreading and growing inside my body.

Hoping that on next weekend, I'm able to settle my itinerary.

 

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. :)


p/s : no complete yet , tb continnnue

I want a vacation

Yeah, I'm desperate for a vacation. Thought that I can have a short vacation in December, yet so sad to announced that Bangkok trip have to cancel. Gosh, why this was happened? Messy flood really hitting Bangkok badly and i have no choice but for safety purposes, i have to cancel it. No doubt on it, most of my friends are kinda sad and disappointed with my no choice solution. Disappointed is not because that we can't go for vacation, but it's really hard for us us us to get our leave approved and some more travel together to Bangkok. I bet that if the plan still on, this will be another wonderful and enjoyable trip after Langkawi Trip. I missed those moment when we hang together, really a lotssss.

Oh yeah, i am trying my very best effort to negotiate with Air Asia whether they allow us to change date or destination due to Bangkok still immerse in water, i hope that AA will truely understand our problem, but i not really put much hope on it. Just pray, if got then is good, cannot also no choice. Dear all friends, don't worry, i will try to make another plan on next year, this time really hope that some of you guy can make it. It's not easy to planned and really hope we have this kind of plan every year.

Arggggg, i need a stress free vacation on December. Anyone out there have good suggestion ? Low cost vacation but full with joy ?

Doom, i hate December as next month gonna be a stressful and busy month. I hope after i close and open my eye, there is January where by CNY is around the corner.

Why this year no have tactical bonus ? Gosh, found that money hard to earn and people around me keep on tease me that i am rich. I'm broke k and poor as usual even though i waer nike shoes, seiko watch, levi's jean and branded shirt. But the fact is i just drove Myvi. =.='''

Okie, enough crap dy, it time to work hard and earn more money for my second dream house.

金马伦疯癫之旅

金马仑对我来说是并不陌生，也是我那么多的名胜地中排名第一的地方，只因哪儿是避暑的好地方，也可以让我暂时逃离喧哗的城市。哪儿出名避暑，冷冷的天气，加上热腾腾的火渦， 吃火渦不流汗，是很快活得。

不懂何时我们一群朋友聊聊天就讲起一起去金马仑，还没去前，我们就聊个天长地北，讲要去哪儿吃早餐的，几点要出发，几点要到达金马仑的，大家都聊得很开心，当然，筹划的当儿，免不了有不同的意见，我提议要做火渦，可是有人反对，经过我多年的筹划经验，意见的分歧是我最不能忍受的，因为这将有于阻碍我的筹划行程。可是很快的，问题也解决了，我们的行程在轨道之上。

让我来简单的介绍金马仑，他是位于马来西亚半岛的彭亨洲titwangsa山脉，位于海拔2000尺以上，常年保持温度摄氏25以下，到了夜晚，温度还可创下摄氏12度的记录。 金马仑是由一个英国的土地测量师所发现， William Cameron，在于1885年。

到了今时今日的金马仑，已成为路人皆知的避暑天堂，翠绿的茶叶，新鲜的蔬果，美丽的花园，要筹划三天两夜或两天一夜的行程，莫过于金马仑莫属。

好啦，废话连篇之后，是时候开始我两天一夜的行程了。和以往一样，我就是那个司机和导游，早早天还没亮5.30 （我很睏阿）就起来接载我的乘客，逐家逐户的去。那么早的原因是我们到下去以ipoh吃点心，人人都讲，吃点心当然是下ipoh,可是我和你们讲，是没有分别的，人多难找位停车，停了车又要给警察开发单，这个点心真的吃的不安乐。

看看我的朋友都忙着拍照，来到这间人人赞好的点心店，人是多到吓死人，每个人都是站在桌子的旁边等待。这样吃点心真的有够stress。 我们也是快快的吃就离开了点心店，每有想象中的好吃到会再回去第二次。

既然来到了ipoh,当然是要去吃当地出名的山水豆腐花，和你们讲，人家店还没有开，队已经排到路旁了，太夸张了，来到ipoh，让我不枉此行的就是这个豆腐花了。

吃饱饱，好让我们可以开车去金马仑了啦。一路上，停停走走的，腰酸背痛，大约一个半小时我们终于到达了金马仑，清新的空气，微微的徐风吹拂在我的脸上，顿时凉爽阿。
午餐到拉，早吃去， 登登，我们的午餐。

来到这喝茶，就是sg palas 的茶园喝茶。也许，很多人会问，怎么我常常来这喝茶，可能我真的很喜欢这儿的环境，那么的清静，微微的凉风，偶尔放下手头上的工作，来这儿沉淀自己，也知道，回去以后心情会很blue，可是这儿就是我的我爱来的地方。

蓝莓cheese蛋糕。蓝莓是我的最爱，看到一层层的cheese吗？ 上面铺满了满满的蓝莓，一口咬下去，蓝莓和cheese溶化在口中。那种结合是那么的完美无瑕。

喝完茶，享受万人生，是时候回家准备今天的火窝大餐了。丰富的餐点，这一餐我们吃的很快活，撑着肚子，开开玩笑，嘻嘻哈哈。 人生在世，聊聊天，谈天说地是人生最快活的事。那一夜，我们做了很多无厘头的事，大家都在玩手电筒和烟花，童年的回忆顿然涌上心头。也许张大了，最想回忆的就是童年。
和以往一样，我是老人，不可以和时间过不去，很快的眼皮就如千斤重，开也开不了，我投降了，我睏了，酒拿来也没喝就睡觉去了。第二起来，每个人都呱呱叫说我第一个跑去睡。pai sei 啦，我睏了。

这个对白虽然很经典，可是还是要用一用，不知不觉我们有要告别这回kl了，知道大家都舍不得，可是我们还是期待下一次的到来。这一次我们停在ringlet的茶园喝茶，很多人，又有点闷热。叫了茶和几块蛋糕，享受我独有的悠闲下午茶，期待我们下一次的续约。